expand & explore.

i feel lost, too. quite a lot. for all of the cheerfulness & light i try and project outwardly, i am afraid & sometimes feel totally alone. 

but these feelings are simply part of the drama, the greatest play ever staged. as much as the physical world is a grand illusion, our emotions are even more so. 

i read about a meditation practice known as "tonglen" in Tibet. basically, it is the art of letting go & receiving. you sit and simply breathe in all the "bad" while breathing out all the "good." in doing this, you are defying your Ego's desire to cling to what makes you feel happy and expel what makes you feel unhappy. 

this meditation interested me because happiness is not my goal-- joy is. joy is a state of mind whereby you are able to appreciate each fleeting emotion from a place of true peace & stillness. this week, i have been trying to practice that with every breath. i want to cultivate a pervasive awareness with each breath i take.. and i want to take each breath consciously. 

the love i give has never come from inside of me, though for way too long i have allowed myself the limitation of believing that is the case. i am the universe. i am the divine. i am the stars. i am the earth. i am you. i am the past, present, & future.. because time is only relative. i will continue to be Love long after my body becomes soil & i have been Love since the conception of existence. let's remember this together & act accordingly, soul-lovers. set yourself on fire & watch the whole world burn. 

"getting lost is not a waste of time," sometimes it is the only wake up call you are able to hear. if you can't see the forest for the trees, change your vantage point. 

namaste.